After some time, we decided to seek out fertility specialists. We created a plan, started the medications and jumped in head first. We were certain, that with medical intervention, we were finally on track to becoming pregnant.
Brian preparing one of my many shots.
Brian on IVF Day
Sabrina on IVF Day
Everything went well, but the embryo's that were implanted didn't survive. We were devastated at first but knew that we would try again. After waiting the mandatory few months, we jumped in again. Meds were increased and tension was high. But we quickly learned that it just wasn't in the cards for us. We didn't even make it far enough into the process to try IVF again. I wasn't progressing quickly enough and we had to stop the medications.
To make it seem like not all hope was lost, the doctors decided to try artificial insemination. Unfortunately, that didn't work either.
We had been praying hard that this procedure work or that the desire to be pregnant be taken away. We knew that I wouldn't be able to handle going through this process again without KNOWING that was the path we were supposed to take.
I'm not even kidding: about a week or so later I felt GOOD. I didn't have this cloud hanging over me anymore. I felt lighter and a little less stressed. We started really talking about adopting and then it just happened. We found the agency, applied, and were accepted. I can truly say that I'm not sad about not getting pregnant and honestly I hardly ever thing about it!
Our hearts are set on our little one in China and we are waiting not-so-patiently until the day we get to meet him or her!
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